Getting My Due

I haven’t forgotten, father.

I remember.

I remember all the things you taught me. All the words, all the expressions you acquainted me with.

You taught me a great many things.

Most of what I know about life, living and how to go on, I have learnt from you.

 

Like a candle in the wind, you didn’t give way easily. You struggled.

Struggled to go on, never giving in to base instincts. You were my idol, my hero.

You showed me the right path, and I’m so, so thankful for that.

It is because of you, that I never strayed. I pressed on, with nerves of steel

That I had inherited from you.

 

Your life was a poignant tale,

and I was merely an onlooker, as it unfolded before me.

I just stayed there, not doing the extreme that I should have done ages ago. And that sense of frustration that comes from not doing enough when I should have done a lot, that tremendous guilt will haunt me forever.

 

I deserve it father.

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Unkeepable

It’s all going away.

Slipping out, like sand slips out from a fist.

You can’t keep it.

No matter how much you try.

It’ll slip away.

And as time goes by

You want to cry

your heart out.

But nothing comes out

Except the sound of your thoughts jumbled up,

your feelings gurgling in your throat.

Unable to make their way out.

There’s no escape from life

The life you chose

Careful what you wish for

Or just go with the flow

Let life have its way with you.

 

Triple X Girlfriend by Front 242

I’ve just found a beautiful song with even more beautiful, deep and profound lyrics. The song is titled “Triple X Girlfriend” and it’s by Front 242. I’ve never heard anything by this band before so I guess this is a good start. This song has gotten me interested to delve deeper into their music.

Here’s the lyrics:

“There is nothing here I haven’t seen
I’m just waiting for my turn to leave
There is nothing I haven’t experienced
And so little left to talk about
There is nothing I haven’t been been through
I’ve stopped waiting for what will not come
There is nothing here I haven’t seen
I’m just waiting for my turn to leave
I will sink soon
I will sink
I will sink soon
I will sink
…soon
there is nothing more I need to learn
I’m more than ready for my return
I’m about to leave this (?doggie tree?)
My visions do not frighten me
I hid far from myself already
Entering a higher energy
I feel my forces abandoning me
I see the lights growing gradually
I will sink soon
I will sink
I will sink soon
I will sink
I hid far from myself already
Entering a higher energy
I feel my forces abandoning me
I see the lights growing gradually
I hid far from myself already
Entering a higher energy
I feel my forces abandoning me
I see the lights growing gradually
I will sink soon
Or will I soar?”

Tell me that isn’t beautiful!

I’m so glad to have discovered Front 242.

Here’s the video: